i feel like dying ; i have no idea why.
it seems like my heart has bled enough,
and adding on to a irritating colleague whom talked nonsense,
and doing nonsensical stuffs to gain attention from us.

i have no absolute idea what's wrong.
my life suddenly turned so grey.
jealousy? emptyiness?
mandy's father and sister are here to stay for another 5 days.
the way they talked to each other, so warmingly.
i have never seen myself in that story happening.
and i also have no idea how to react sitting down with them
while they are talking happily and quarreling over small stuffs.

my past, it seems so unclear ;
i dont wanna tear something that i find it useless for.

with not much alternatives;
the life-long goals i strive for.
my art ♥ ; your vice .