erase the dirt?
aren't you erasing me away now?
congrats, u have done the best job.

i found these sentences in a blog ;
and guess what, that's my back nick few days ago,
and please can you stop thinking too much? you know who you are.
erase the dirt refers to my erasing of my own past.
do you have to make everything so complicated?
do you have to think so much, when things aren't happening that way at all?
do you have to find everything that i write, which refers to you?

put yourself into my shoes. PLEASE

i know people have moodswings and emo-periods, i can understand that.
but having a friend who thinks alot, having a friend who keeps having moodswings and emo-ing, and even how i tried to console or asking you to cheer up, dont seem to work.
do you know tired these things can be?
remember the time u say WHEN ARE U PLANNING TO TALK TO ME.
how am i supposed to reply, when u are moodswinging, with ur replies or OK , ORH, hais. please tell me how to, if there is a way, i will try it.

and as i have stated clearly, i didn't spoke to you during the outing,
as i really have no idea what topics can we talk about,
and i have told you the reason why, is because we chatted day and night in msn.
and suddenly 2 months later, in real life what am i supposed to do and say?
you said i am like not talking to you, or ignoring you.
how about the other way round, why not u start the conversation first or something?
the day i met you guys in pastamania, your face was terrible gloomy.
you can be the one posting things in your xanga, and keep some sort of complaining and trying to voice out yourself.
have you thought of me? the days of friendship we had, did i ever whine abit? saying abit of you?

and since she said that i want something in return
i can say, now then i find out
im such a person to u

i know you treated me as the very good best friend as you say,
i told you i treated you as a good friend, and what i meant of something in return isn't what u thinking about.
it's the different treatment of friendship, i decipher for you.
U CAN DO SO MUCH FOR ME, i appreciate it
BUT ME DOING SO MUCH FOR OTHERS, is not that easy.
the way u treat me as a verygoodfriend, i really do appreciate it,
but i am not used to such treatments, and is kind of scaring me off.

seriously if this is the way it gonna be,
and this is the way, where u wanna blog it out
this is the way u wanna think so much about this
this is the way u making ur mind go wild
this is the way u trying to say how bad i treated you, even though u treated me like the BEST
then seriously, i have nothing to say anymore about this.

but i will say on the first hand,
SORRY,there is nothing much i can do anymore.

with not much alternatives;
the life-long goals i strive for.
my art ♥ ; your vice .