& it comes to a point that,
i can't help people in distressed situations.
i can't even console people in such situations.
how useless. how bad can it be.
i don't know. maybe all my true words don't count any weight.

i've been pushing to all my limits.
telling myself, i definitely can do better.
school is stressing, but all i can do is ;
revise/practice/console myself i'm a full time student.
& i still can't relieve myself from the burden.

this is really life-threatening.

weather is turning bad even ;
& the one bright thing is.
i'm having pasta later.

with not much alternatives;
the life-long goals i strive for.
my art ♥ ; your vice .