going to 18days more to major.
the numbers getting lesser ; but pressure gaining much.
thought i will be really mugging hard ; real hard.
but it just seems like normal slow revision to me.
doing a few chapters for few days. how can it possible finish by then?

i'm getting the idea to give up everything.
definite no point in life to continue.
studies. family. blah blah.
if this exam i din't do well, what will i do?
sometimes a child having self discpline to study;
or being more sensible than the rest;
or changed from the person i was from last time;
doesn't mean that he/she need no encouragement
from family or friends.

but it is really a stupid act to go commit suicide to end everything.
however, i really have no idea how to lighten myself.
been smoking more than ever ; i can't help it.
no idea how to talk to people about such issue.
no idea who to talk to about such things.
& no idea how to help myself in this.

this is really sad.

with not much alternatives;
the life-long goals i strive for.
my art ♥ ; your vice .